Three things, somewhat unconnected, but nonetheless sloshing around this week’s brain-stew are as follows:
If you read the “I’m so vain” post, but did not read the comments, you may want to go do that so what I am about to write will make sense.
In my post, I made the mistake of providing no segue way between saying that make-up-lessness provided me a chance to see the blackness of my heart AND asking you all to be better at accountability.
I think my post kind of gave the impression that make-up-lessness was the problem. Of course, in your gentle way, you wanted to soothe me. Quite a few of you wrote about self-esteem and body image and comparing yourself to others, but that I feel like was not exactly what I wanted to communicate. The REAL problem is sin not body image.
Being vain or proud is a sin.
Being judgmental is a sin.
Having an imperfect body, large pores, thinning hair, an overlarge forehead, chubby thighs, ugly knees, and/or adult acne are not sins.
Being self-conscious to the point of self-absorption seems also to be a sin.
And when we have sin and we confess it to friends, let’s not say the spiritual equivalent of “Girlfriend, skinny jeans are for everyone!”
If you want to be encouraging, pile it on with purple dye-jobs, over tight jeans, or puff paint sweaters. But when it comes time to say the hard things about drinking too much, wearing tight shirts, gossiping, or talking bad about our husbands, I want to figure out a way to say, Girl, it’s time to let that mess go.
More on this in upcoming post.
This is my no spending week.
We have one trash bag left, so I’m already getting a practice on no waste week. Since I can’t even walk to buy food, I’m getting a rehash of food week. Other than this, I don’t have much to say about no spending except:
MY KIDS ARE DRIVING ME ABSOLUTELY CRAZY AND NOTHING IS FREE! (Don’t say the library or I’ll stab you. My library is the size of an iPad.)
That is all.
PS: Homeschoolers should be sainted.
PPS: Praise God for public schools who accept my children and employ my husband.
Do not read The Hunger Games series when you are doing The Summer of 7.
Even though I think this book is classified as adolescent dystopian fiction, it is straight up satire. Satire, for those of you lacking a dusty BA in English, is a literary composition, in verse or prose, in which human folly and vice are held up to scorn, derision, or ridicule.
People, squirm much. We are the Capitol; it is wretched. I might as well dye my skin pink. I am not sure if Katniss or Jen Hatmaker has made me think more about my priorities, but one thing is for sure, I am starting to realize that THIS, this very Summer of 7 exercise is . . . .a game to me in many ways.
I’m doing all this to see if I can SURVIVE it, and to watch you and see if you can too. Can we play “pretend” poor? Can we? (Triple clap.) Won’t that be fun?
While we are talking pop-fiction, I also library-rented that Justin Timberlake movie, In Time, which is another dystopian satire where the rich people distance themselves from the poor, rolling around in the dollar bins at Target in an orgiastic ritual.
Not really, but that is what it felt like the whole time.
I have to slap myself every third day and say to myself, THIS IS NOT A GAME. This is a fast. If I do this out of idle curiously, amusement, or boredom, it is arbitrary and useless . . . because I will just return to my old habits and mind-sets lickety-split.
Instead I need to say, GOD, please have mercy on me. Move into this space I’ve managed to empty for 7 days; please do it quick before I refill it with some new anti-boredom Ap-o-fun. Show me the poor. Take me to them. Move ME.
Micah 6:8 He has shown you, O Man, what is good and what the Lord requires of you. But to do justice, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God.
I’m adding this to the Summer of 7 Spending Blog HOP. If you want to read some delightful and cohesive writing on this subject to clear your brain of the jumble I just dumped in there, please read one of these posts. Additionally, if you want to join the Summer of 7 Conversation, check out this Facebook Group.